there really isn't anything worth writing about now

this is one of the downsides of being an alpha sanguine: impulsiveness.
i elbowed my way into getting a copy of harry potter and the deathly hallows on wednesday despite not having the means to purchase one. read: charge! i'm lucky not to own a credit card because i have a feeling that i'd be wiped out from debt even before i reach 25. i don't have my own credit line but i somehow got around to charging the book on plastic. hurray for credit card extensions and birthdays. anyhoo, i bought the book because i was impatient for the weekend to come, by which time i'd be able to borrow my sister's copy. the week stretched looong and i just had to get my hands on the last installment right that instant.
i finished the book in two nights [in record time, too considering i read during office breaks only].
i am so proud of me.
i'm selling my copy to pay off the debt. i just wanted to read it.
my dada's gonna have a coronary when he finds out that i bought a harry potter book. yikes.

best baguio memories. part three.

i am reduced to a blabbering buffoon remembering the good ole days when i was there. when life was there. when my heart was beating perfectly normal there. anube tutube. adik is what this is.
itaas ang kamay ng lahat ng nakakamiss sa baguio at gustong bumalik doon pero hindi pwede. tara. um-emo tayez. haulright.

once upon a time, there was a bored kid who woke up and said, "i think i want to be a dj today." and after much struggles and other bored-things-to-do in between, she ended up in the realms of camp allen with that tangkad ng very hard tower and blinking red light on top.

hello airwaves. i knew you in theory. but this is beyond what the books say! i hearts you like whoa.
but the waves weren't always friendly. when that happens i turn to other friends. and what great friends they are. so really, this is what part three is about. the people behind the radio frequency.

this jockey thing is a short stint. but the behind the scenes will last a life time. hay. gulay. dq on the loose.

    girl, put your records on. nothing else sounds as good as 96.7 k-lite.

[today, last year] i auditioned for the jock hunt with no intentions of getting picked.  it's a sort of denget-i-have-to-try-this-now-or-never.  

 

pramis, classic story ng nasapian yung audition na to. i didn't know what i was doing while i was doing it. when all was over and done, i was, did i really go through with that or am i dreaming na naman? you see, this was a long overdue reach-for-your-dream-step. my sense of reality at this time was somewhat marred, haha.

you know what they say about dreams coming true? well, this is what it was like for me. of course, i had issues when i was starting, but the people and relationships that came with it top all the nerve wrecks any day.
it's tough to extract all the happy times i want to write about. someday i hope i can get my head back and write minus being all emotional. so for the most parts, look here and here and here too [kahit sobrang luma na yan].

blessed is what i am for being acquainted with the nicest techies in the world, kuya sammy the hammy, kuya frankie the mankie, kuya albert the... tall and the interns na rin *swoon*; the most talented, erm, talents that side of the metro: DJs leeann fischer [haha, may nameet ako dito na taga-baguio and they said they love the angel daw, awww.], jeremiah jones [you know i hearts you like whoa], krish [the funniest funny person ever ever], dana grey [she's soooo pretty], jedai [the veggie tale], hannah grace [my favorite korean], tsaka tsaka si francis [na iniwan kami para sa kanyang lupain]... am i missing anyone... ayown; the bestest lunch mates in the world ate candice [mwaaah] and ate wengsterrific [hala, kung anu ano na tawag ko sayo]; and of course the admin/management to whom i owe the loveliest four months of my 2006, ma'am let and sir johnny [si jamaica na rin and taray, valentine and cleo].

cheers to the nicest dream come true so far and to one of my best baguio memories!

hurray for sleep! ha?

happy eduardo the second day!

ay christian ka rin?
like it was the most amazing discovery we encountered in college.

eduardo [cafirma] dela cruz mwah.
master faller [because abortionist is MY title].
patient phlegmatic.
thesis partner.
direk.
black-mate.
blockmate.
co-fan of ma-el.
el presidente.
drama king.
ex-housemate.
sick-o. [kasi madalas sakitin]
THE baguio midland courier.
fellow.

      

happy eduardo the second day!

wishes for the dude who wrote our thesis:
1. good health. you seriously need to take care of yer health mehn.

2. an international award for journalism.

3. a joyful [and healthy] heart so you can always serve the Lord with a smile.



i hearts you like whoa dude. you know [should know] how much i treasure having a friend like you. and i would never trade what we had for anything. yun lang bow. jeremiah 29:11 is my verse for you. ahlurveyeh mehn! :D

happy arriane day!

here we are, it's not a perfect world... -ken zhu.
she cried over that.
haha.

we were sitting in the tambayan near the 20s stairs gushing over meteor garden stuff [and other smart stuff as well, haha] because we were such f4 freaks then [oi, aminin]. we burst into song all of a sudden belting out the same lines at the same time. then we stopped and laughed. while i was laughing my guts out [of all random songs to sing naman kasi] her crush passed by. the next thing i knew, she was crying. being the nice and supportive friend that i am, i laughed harder.

just thinking about it makes me laugh still. hay, arriane. wagi ka talaga mag-react. until now, it is still a mystery to us both why tears spilled out of her pretty eyes at the thought of ken zhu and that dude [na itago na lang natin sa pangalang sam]. why georgia why?

after that, she never cried over boys again. she made them cry instead. yey. haba kasi ng hair. literally and figuratively. she has gorgeous locks. they're full of body and very shiny, like that of a shampoo commercial. we'd tease her about it and tell her that we can do a shampoo ad. we supply the 'before' she poses for the 'after.'

she can get serious, too. and really, really dedicated about things she sets her mind at. like productions and taekwondo. she's almost black belt now [ituloy mo na kasi. 'keep kicking your dreams' hahaha].

she looks pretty in a dobuk, her hair pulled back in a tight ponytail [every strand carefully combed into place, she's OC like that] poised in a fighting stance.

for that, we gotta thank her for backstage passes to be with the most adorable taek peeps in the beautiful land of baguio. whoot!

mare, i can go on and on, but you know that awready. so for you on your birthday, i have all these things. first off 'gifts' on your day.

1. i give you the gift of charms. pfft. not that you need it. i mean, you won't have a line of fontana boys if you weren't charming, you know?

2. wala na kong maisip ano pa ba? you should get every f4 memorabilia you can get hold of because precious moments were built because of them.

3. and you get superman on your birthday! yey for you! :D

and as candles blown for you, i wish you...

1. good health so you can keep making others smile by simply being blooming and nice.

2. and your family sobrang dami ng blessings as in OA sa apaw, so you can continue ministering to hungry and destitute people.

3.  wisdom and God's guidance so you can be the person you were made to be.

i hearts you like whoa arriane best friend. this one here is really cliche but i'm gonna say it anyway. i am so blessed that we became friends and i am truly grateful to God for a mare like you. i would just like to share my life verse... trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. [proverbs 3:5-6] pati na rin a part of my life psalm... [you are] fearfully and wonderfully made [psalm 139:14]. i praise God for you. yey! :D

tsaka pala kung pwede ka magshare ng mga boylets mo dyan, eh you know my number. mwah! happy arriane day! :D

[if you know arriane, and would like to wish her a happy burthday, find her here and send her a message] :D

best baguio memories. part two.

i'm on a roll. feeling sentimental just because these july rains bring in a cold rush [from the north but don't quote me on that] that reminds me of that one place my heart calls home.

best baguio memory number two. inter-varsity christian fellowship northern luzon!

there are so many things about it that i dearly love. and i can't even start describing how much it means to me. ivcf has become my family up north. the Lord used ivcf  for me to know Him deeper and become seriously joyful in my faith.

the Graduate Team of Baguio 2006

six months into the GT ministry taught me a lot of things. grabe. there were moments i wished i went to the corporate world full time so i can get my star path going, but being a graduate team member has more eternally-valuable lessons that i couldn't have learned elsewhere. ANG GALING LANG TALAGA NI GOD SOBRA!

one of the things i'll never forget is the terrible bagyo last year when so many places had landslides. i'm just thankful we were safe and in great spirits. when these girls get topak, they do crazy things. that's roma and me on that fateful day. if i have the power to relive it, i will.

marami pa sobra. and shucks, words escape me right now. they're running so fast in my head that my fingers cannot keep up.

coffee bonding sessions with ate dot, kuya erik, kuya carlo are also memorable. i love staying at their house for chats and coffee [ate dot bakes the best breads and cakes!]. hay. muling ibalik, please please.

then there are Bible studies which i super enjoy. hay. exegesis and hermeneutics and apologetics are always, always so great to do. and my girls. grabe.

SOBRANG DAMI PA.

[sorry, i am incoherent, i get really sentimental at the thought] more to come.

best baguio memories. part one.

once upon a time there were four girls graduating from college.
(december 2005)

lookie how they are now! :D

these are definitely the three most beautiful girls in UPbaguio. what's that saying about birds of the same feather...? they were right when they said that. :D hahaha.

i remember in college how we used to not hang out in school and opt to walk around town, stalk away in nearby schools [hurray for bbeal!], pig out at ann's or pie's [when tita is not around] or marose's [with the friendly boarding house ghosts] or sometimes in breha, when the manangs are out of sight.

last hang out in breha naming mahal.
(february 2006)

so they're almost gay now. while i was usually overdressed, pie, ann and ala felt most comfortable in jeans and flats [i never understood why, hehe]. but really, while they think accessories are too much, they are beautiful in any form.

when i think about how long we've been together [since first day of college] i can't help but be amazed at how tight we chose to stay. i am the most difficult person to like in the world, and i am so blessed to have these girls stand by me through thick and thin. yey! they deserve one grande mocha frappe from me when we meet again. kelan kaya yun?

i love love these pretty women. i miss having intellectual conversations with them just before going to sleep and munching on pringles and chichiria. haha, pero lagi ko silang natutulugan. i go: sige lang magsalita lang kayo ha, nakikinig naman ako. pag di na ko sumagot, tulog na ko ha.


ooh, they are my pusoy dos teachers. and i beat them the first time we played. denget. miss na miss ko na silaaaa!

confession: the only reason i got decent grades is because they are usually my group mates. haha. i feel so terrible tuloy for being so bossy. oh but chu know, i take care of the form, they do the substance. it works naman diba? oh the days of leg work! i run around in heels while they get so busy digging up dirt to get that news. hay, talk about dedication.

i could go on and on and on how much i love love these friends of mine. i shall spotlight them one of these days. so to pie, marose and arriane... thanks for being such good influences on me. for being the best fwends a girl can have and for making college in baguio worthwhile. you rockS! haha *winks*

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efc hits trinoma

i hearts these girls like whoa. we don't get to see each other a lot but when we do, it seems like only yesterday since we last hung out.
high school is nice to look back on only because of these girls [missing angelika who's in the UK now and pat who's somewhere around the metro].
:D syempre pati na rin the rest of amorsolo.
we're the dorkiest bunch of girls we know. and proud of it. hirap talaga maging smart. :D

definitely NOT a transformers review

[cross-posted]

i was never one to make an instant rave about a movie i just saw. it usually takes me longer than a year to get the right words before sharing what i think [about a movie] to the world [at least in blog form] and forgetting to write about it anyway.

what i do though, is text brigade my friends as the credits roll and relay the most blockheaded comment that i could muster. like somebody who would grab on the mic of a reporter and scream, "deees ees da bes movie everrr!" as soon as they get past the cinema's door.

last night was a spontaneous, denget-i-have-got-to-see-transformers-tonight-or-i'll-die moment, and i was all set to march into the movie house to catch it by myself. at the last minute, my baguio barkada decided she'd like to meet me so i asked her to come along.

so there we were, two cosmo girls [she's so pretty too] getting in line to watch a [as previous reviews claimed it to be] testosterone-packed sci-fi movie. gahd, we were such geeks copying the transformers sound like we were trying to get phlegm out.

you didn't have to know that.

so there were the credits rolling, i took my phone out and told my friends, "i grew testosterone in two hours. i'm a boy now." what the jeepers is that about right? and as i write this, i'm seriously willing my cell phone to transform and become a robot just like i was cautious of getting into a vehicle lest they turn into an autobot/decepticon.

i'll leave the rating and the analysis to real movie reviewers.

oh. i just have to say this out loud. i was never a hardcore transformers fan. luckily i have a kuya and he made sure i got a good dose of boys' stuff and not be a prissy missy who lived to watch my little pony. so yeah, i had an idea that they do the [insert transformers sound] and what the deal between the autobots and the evil decepticons is. i was even convinced that our lolo's red mustang turned into a robot at night; that's how gullible i was. beats the idea of flying ponies, i'd always say.
just thought i'd share. :)

can't wait for starscream to take over megatron's evil reign. nyahahahaha. :D

ang tunay na "transformer"

lookie she's gay now. :D after watching transformers we decided to go straight home to my house and catch up.

we didn't take a lot of pictures kasi late na rin naman and all that jazz. we just talked and talked and talked.

this ought to be fun. :)

i stole this from dioney.

the rules:
1. Write something about fifteen different people.
2. You can NOT say who they are.
3. If someone asks you which one is about them, you are NOT to tell.

the twist:
if you guess which one is about/for you correctly, i just might admit to it. haha. trylaloo.

okay okay.

1. you always talk in riddles either to put me off or to avoid the question. why'd you have to make it so hard?
2. i hate being judgmental but with you, it comes naturally.
3. you always tell me i can do it but you never believe me when i tell you you can.
4. will you marry me? haha.
5. i loved you since day one.
6. i really think yours is one of the prettiest faces i've ever seen.
7. i gave up on my film-making dreams because of you.
8. i will never tell you you broke my heart when you sided with "it" out of bias. boo you.
9. don't let it get through your head, but clearly, you have to reconsider your career choice.
10. i love being mean when you are around.
11. you are living the life i want to live. i love you for not rubbing it in.
12. you can't like hanging out with them better than being with us. we've been friends forever!
13. we could have been together. why'd you have to choose the other side?
14. love doesn't always have to mean peachy or cheesy, thanks for reminding me. until next time.
15. i will treat you to coffee one of these days, just come around, so we can talk about it.

wait... there's more. haha. ang saya eh. :D
16. do you have to be so perfect?
17.  you give ____ a bad name.
18. thank you for liking me for who i am, nice or otherwise, you love me still. i miss you too!
19. i'm glad you already found the one.
20. ako na lang! haha.

guess away. clue, syempre if you are usually reading my thoughts, i have one for you in this list. if you are a lurker but you are special to me, you have one here too. and if you are ryan seacrest [hello, hello] eh it's kind of tough to identify which one's for you, diba? haha.

who said anything about safe?

in the middle of emergency lights, sweltering heat and lack of technology, God spoke. you gotta be amazed at how He uses the most unlikely circumstances to drive a point.

Pastor Dave [SP: Senior Pastor cum Superb Photographer] did a wonderful job of exhorting on Habbakuk [a book/prophet in the old testament which i know as a joke, as in, anong libro ang bubuksan mo sa Bible pag nauuhaw?]. Habbakuk was very vocal about his "complaints" to what is happening to Israel while God seems to be mum about the whole thing. how bizarre for God to take so long to give a concrete answer to a dire need as if saying, "so?" And He goes on saying that He will raise the Babylonians up. Can you just imagine Habbakuk's exasperation, oh come on Lord, they are so bad, you should not tolerate them!

We can think of so many reasons why God should answer our prayers and get us out of trouble. I mean, isn't that what a good God should do? we can be adamant at God to take us out of a dangerous situation while "reminding" Him that, God, this is so not like you, when He seems to ignore our plea. And we are so sure that the way we imagine salvation to come is what He will do exactly.

God is good all the time. All the time, God is good. sometimes, we classify what is good. we understand things differently, make a mental note of what good should be, and expect God to be that. The thing is, God is sovereign. meaning He does what He pleases.

If we say we trust God, then we should know how to rest in Him when His answers take too long. He is up to something and He knows your end. Like what the message said, if we drown, fine, as long as we're in God's hands. Faith is the key to understanding God's goodness.

sometimes, God seems to "ignore" our prayers or is taking too long in giving answers and all we get from Him is wait. it's so unsettling, yes, but the righteous will live by his faith. [Habbakuk 2:4]

as with Habbakuk, the Lord seemed to delay an immediate, logical answer to his prayers. But He guaranteed that He will not let the Babylonians go unpunished. if you know your history, is there still a remnant of that once-powerful kingdom? exactly.

all hell may break loose, we can lose the things we hold dear, be betrayed by those whom we trust, and die of suffocation at a sunday service [hehe] but knowing that we have peace with a God who knows exactly what He is doing- always in His terms- means we can chill and trust that even if we suffer, we suffer in His hands. our idea of good does not exactly have to mean comfortable or safe or convenient. nobody said that living for Christ is a trouble-free existence. it just assures you that no matter what, He has your best interest- although not in the way you see it- at heart.

Our service ended the way it started, the place dark and hot, no electricity and no spectacular powerpoint presentation, but God is good. He delivered His message as clearly as He would in any air-conditioned, electrically supplied service.

as the ending to Pastor Dave's sermon, he quoted Lucy of The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe [by CS Lewis], asking Mr. Beaver, "Then he [Aslan the lion] isn't safe?" [referring to the statement that everyone falls on his knees in fear when meeting Aslan] to which the kind beaver replied, "Safe? Who said anything about safe? 'Course he isn't safe. But he's good."

Is God really good? YES.