april twenny one

Pretend na lang that it's 2006 today. What's three years naman ba? *eeyuck konyor*
And anyway, it does feel like I'm graduating. It's my supposed last week at work, if you must know. Supposed because I'm extending until next week but just the same, transitions will take effect.

It took a long time before I absorbed the grown-upness of the past three years. Mostly because it's easier to deny the changes or sugarcoat nightmares. In my world... blah blah blah.

After all the drama and quarter-life in the making, I decide I'm going to be whoever time asks me to be. I can be Xai in 2006 or Xaris in 2009 and either way, they're both me.

So not the drama diba. Isn't it exciting how things are about to change and I'm just eagerly anticipating as the pages turn. Nakakakilig kaya. Right now, I feel like jumping and screaming and yeying and singing Best of Both Worlds at the top of my lungs.

Ewan ko na kung anong mangyayari pagkatapos nito. Gaya ng kiber din kung anong mangyayari after grad. I am certain of one thing though, that God has seen and knows what my future looks like even before I start imagining it. Kaya, chill lang.

Every other day, I'm scared because I don't know. On in-between days, I'm excited precisely because I don't know. Schitz in the making ba?

I've stopped defining things because I will redefine them someday and soon render everything meaningless. Ah basta. Jesus defines my meaning. Yan na lang muna. :)