yes yes josiah's the best!

random green moments. yeah yeah, ignore the green. haha.

let the tears flow then wipe from the cheeks

hanggang ngayon tinatanong ko pa rin kung bakit kailangan magpakasal ang mga taong nagmamahalan at gustong bumuo ng pamilya.

may naisip na akong tanungin. noong bata pa ako, may mga bagay na siya lang nakakapag explain ng medyo natatanggap ko. gaya ng kung bakit hindi demonic ang eraserheads o kaya kung bakit ang mga kulto ay hindi katanggap tanggap. yung mga sa totoong buhay eh mababaw na tanong pero nabibigyan niya ng lalim. kasi may laman naman talaga.

kaya lang kinuha na siya ng Lord kagabi. hindi ko alam kung paano magreact. kasi alam kong siya lang makakasagot ng tanong ko sa ngayon.

wala na yung senior pastor namin. wala na si tito bob.

madaya. nandun na siya sa gusto kong puntahan. madaya talaga. hindi man lang nasagot yung tanong ko. sayang kasi siya pa naman yung magkakasal sakin. pero di pa rin nasasagot yung tanong ko.

hi kuya bob, salamat sa pagpapalaki ng maayos sa mga magulang ko. salamat sa votes of confidence [kareees, nakakatuwa ka talaga magsalita noh, kuhang kuha mo yung audience noh; kareees, ang ganda ganda talaga ng boses mo, maglead ka na ng praise and worship; kareees, magmember ka na sa church; karees, para ka talagang mommy mo napakalambing hehehehe].

salamat din po pala for suggesting to name me xaris. pa-autograph kay cs lewis ah pag nagkita kayo jan. pa-apir na rin kay paul, bilib ako dun eh. rock on tito bob, rock on. :)

You've raised them well tito bob. :)

i turned phlegmatic overnight.

of all the days to be "normal" i had to pick yesterday. the imossible has happened. the xaris partied in *gasp* her uniform *squirms* at the wedding essentials dinner party at the rockwell tent. geez. i was there in shocking green while the rest of the industry was in their party clothes which don't even compare to my xaris-normal days. where were my four inch heels and vintage ensembles when i needed them?? why does it always rain on me? why? why rockwell why?

on the plus side [depends how you look at it], i found out that i was actually working for one of the top wedding suppliers in the country. hah, talk about downsizing my area of work. i had no idea. but it all dawned on me last night *hallelujah chorus*  yes yes josiah's  the best!

it was a bit shocking too to find out that my boss practically knows everyone at the party, making beso after every five steps, to some soshalera-ever and half the party hall. oh rawr. so that's what PR is about. it was funny, actually becauce ma'am jet has always been "just ninang jet" all my life when she is in fact a biggie in the wedding industry.

funny too how i realized i am anti-social after all contrary to previous claims. last night got me thinking whether stardom really is for me. so now, i resolve to strut my stuff no matter what it takes. hah. that's the spirit!

i now come to the conclusion that this is not yet the time for my star to shine. there are a lot more stardust to collect. but but but that doesn't have to mean i will never glimmer. believe me, i will. consider this a training ground, i always say.

tomorrow i will be sanguine again.

because i was tagged

Each player of this game starts off by making a weblog post, listing ten(10) weird things/habits or little known facts about himself/herself, then tagging six (6) other bloggers to do the same. no tag backs.

okay here goes...
1. i used to play basketball and wanted to be a pro. i was really young then, prolly around seven or eight. when all my peers opted to play with dolls, i shot hoops with my kuya on a self-made basketball ring. and then i thought i'd become really good and join wnba someday. but i turned gay and decided that my basketball dreams will have to take the side lines because it's way funner watching the guys play.

2. i thought that toys actually move when i turn out the lights and go to bed. i was obsessed to prove that i was right, i put in all my toys around my bed [so they wake me up when they want to play] but found them neatly on the shelves when morning came. i thought that that proved my theory only to find out that my brother hates what i'm doing so he packs all my toys as soon as i doze off.

3. i put mayo in corned beef and adobo. it's yummy, i swear!

4. i like to scratch anything itchy and make it bleed so i would stop scratching.

5. when i was ten or nine, i had this notebook where i wrote short stories and made my own illustrations. i thought i'd publish it one day until i can't remember where i put it. i was so shattered i never wanted to write a storybook again.

6. no matter how much i deny it, i think fairy tales are the best invention for cure of boredom. i love fairy tales... every other day. that's why i love love disney, they make everything magical.

7. stalking is the best past time in the world. when i was in high school, i could fill out a whole slum book about my crush without me ever having to talk to him. i guess the habit grew on me because until college i found so many interesting things about my "prospect of the month," being fed with necessary, volunteered information.  yes,

sinabsolution

, hello! :)

8. before the gay, kikay interior i now have, i was into a lot of, erm, "dark" things [but not fully gothic, that's too much for me] like heavy metal music, grunge rock, a lot of black, silver bling blings, messy, unkempt dos. luckily i never had suicidal tendencies, i just dabbled into a lot of morbid and creepy things. before emo was, i am. hehe.

9. i am a big fan of greek... everything! from literature to culture to geography to food to language to greek men, hehe. i haven't really gotten around to studying more about it, but when i do, that would be one big dream checked off my list.

10. contrary to popular belief, i am not friendly. i don't make friends easily and as much as possible i refuse to take the initiative. if i really, really like someone to be my friend, i don't approach that person. i make sure someone else introduces us first. but i'm a keeper. if i have made a friend, it's for keeps in its truest sense.

now i'm tagging... *drum roll*

rominaiza

,

sinister_vision

,

hellobebe

,

orange_stardust

, pie and jiar.

because this is what doting fans do

yeahbah my oh-so-favorite

hellobebe

for this video with my oh-so-favorite

pinggoy

in the world. iamsuchafanthankyoubow.

click me!
or not...hmmm, wonder watisap.

funny how they should be portraying the sordid tale that is my lurvelife [or lack of it thereof]... oo na, given i wasn't really the inspiration for this pero bakit ba gusto ko magdrama eh. ganun talaga pag may mga heart shwarla, kala mo lahat ng bagay eh patama sayo. huwag nang umangal. moment to ng mga favorites ko. nyahahaha.

i don't like callalily, for the record. yun lang. bow.

i love love thursday!

charing!